I'm really getting sick and tired of this Christmas Party. As in I really wanna quit the committee right now. The system in here stinks... People doesn't argue or ask everything when you ask them if they have any questions but after that you'll hear a lot of b&lsht talks going at your back. If only I could take a leave until the end of the year with no consequences attached, I would really take it. They allowed us to set our own rules, criterias, and guidelines for the programme but when they don't like it, they will say and scare us and saying that his/her whole team will boycott the party. Isn't that b&lsht!?! If he/her has something on her mind way back before, he/she shouldn't simply told us beforehand. And he/her doesn't need to blow all the whistles out when saying what he/she doesn't like. It's not very professional.. It's really hard organizing this kind of event with these kind of people in here.. I can't any work done right now because I'm trying my best to make this event wonderful but what do we get right now?! It's seems like that all people here think that we're some kind of junk or dirt in here. Maybe it's just me that they think is a junk of failure.. I know that we made some mistakes but that doesn't mean that he/she can get mad to everybody...
Hay... I'm already talking b&lsht too right now.. Hay.. I will not try to dampen my spirit right now but it's starting to get on my nerves... Hay.. Stupid Christmas party...
Friday, November 25, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Time's Running Out...
Can't believe it.. It's now just 8 more days before our Christmas Party but it seems that as the day of the event draws near, problems start to sprout everywhere. Why does this seems to always happen even before way back in High School and College, everytime a specific event comes it is only a few days before that people will start to question, ask, or react to the said event...
I'm not saying that I'm a perfect person, but why is does that always happen? How can I know if people is having problems understanding or grasping the nature of the event when no one dares to ask back then? How can I know if I make the right decisions when in fact that all of my co-officers understand and agreed what we want the department to do but some leaders and co-employees doesn't..?
So far I'm just hearing wild reactions from one group regarding the program. I don't know if it just happen that that specific theme that the group got is really difficult to make a cheer to. Actually I don't have any idea on what kind of cheer that the other groups could do but so far, I don't hear any questions from them. I even asked one of my officemate (though he is also a member of our Christmas Party Committee) if we are asking to much from the department given the limited time available and he said that it is not, it's just the people is making the job/task more difficult.
Another problem that I am encountering is that some groups only have limited number of members in it because some are on-duty while some are on leave. I now pressured in agreeing to their request to merge some groups together but still I don't want to give in because just as our adviser said that agreeing to that will not encourage people to join the party.
Hay.. I know having doubts with my whole decision making capabilities.. It seems that I always make the wrong decision in everything.. Hopefully this year's party would not be just a fluke or else I wouldn't have any more face to the poeple here....
I'm not saying that I'm a perfect person, but why is does that always happen? How can I know if people is having problems understanding or grasping the nature of the event when no one dares to ask back then? How can I know if I make the right decisions when in fact that all of my co-officers understand and agreed what we want the department to do but some leaders and co-employees doesn't..?
So far I'm just hearing wild reactions from one group regarding the program. I don't know if it just happen that that specific theme that the group got is really difficult to make a cheer to. Actually I don't have any idea on what kind of cheer that the other groups could do but so far, I don't hear any questions from them. I even asked one of my officemate (though he is also a member of our Christmas Party Committee) if we are asking to much from the department given the limited time available and he said that it is not, it's just the people is making the job/task more difficult.
Another problem that I am encountering is that some groups only have limited number of members in it because some are on-duty while some are on leave. I now pressured in agreeing to their request to merge some groups together but still I don't want to give in because just as our adviser said that agreeing to that will not encourage people to join the party.
Hay.. I know having doubts with my whole decision making capabilities.. It seems that I always make the wrong decision in everything.. Hopefully this year's party would not be just a fluke or else I wouldn't have any more face to the poeple here....
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Stupid Realization
A sudden realization...
It's very hard to be close to someone when that person is not interested in being close to you...
Stupid realization as it might seem, but sometimes I can't notice but always try to be close to someone who I feel comfortable with. Hay.. Maybe the irony of life..
It's very hard to be close to someone when that person is not interested in being close to you...
Stupid realization as it might seem, but sometimes I can't notice but always try to be close to someone who I feel comfortable with. Hay.. Maybe the irony of life..
Dream Catcher..
I had a very strange dream last night but that dream is one of my dreams that I wish that I haven't woken up...
Strange in a sense that I was with my barkada one Saturday afternoon (I think), walking through the busy streets of Ongpin and suddenly became hungry and decided to eat somewhere in one of the restaurants in its narrow streets, a place quite familiar but can't remember or visualize the exact place or the way going there. Maybe it's a place that I have already dreamt about before.. The place was a four or more stories high and we were on the third floor but the dining table is not that clean and even the wiaters there are not wearing clean uniforms but I noticed that we like to eat there because we all agreed to eat there...
As my dreams progresses, it becomes much stranger because at first I was with my barkada then suddenly I was dining with my crush during my last year of high school at the same restaurant. I was shocked to see my crush there and didn't anymore tried to look for my barkada for I have the hunch the they were the ones who set it up. So we dined and chatted all the way. I was surprised that how open are we for each other: telling jokes and stories and not minding what was going on outside. After eating, we went downstairs of the restaurant while holding each other's hands.. I went with her to a place where she bought something and then suddenly... POOF!! I woke up again! And I suddenly realized that if I didn't stand up that time, I will surely be late for work! Damn! How I wish that I didn't have work that day.. =(
There were also instances during my dream that I suddenly woke up but because I'm still sleepy and would like to continue my dream, I tried to sleep again and to my luck, my dream continued everytime.
While eating breakfast, I can't help myself from smiling because of what I dreamt about. It's been a long since I had a dream again and dreamt a good one also.. Now I am wondering what this dream mean or represent...?
Strange in a sense that I was with my barkada one Saturday afternoon (I think), walking through the busy streets of Ongpin and suddenly became hungry and decided to eat somewhere in one of the restaurants in its narrow streets, a place quite familiar but can't remember or visualize the exact place or the way going there. Maybe it's a place that I have already dreamt about before.. The place was a four or more stories high and we were on the third floor but the dining table is not that clean and even the wiaters there are not wearing clean uniforms but I noticed that we like to eat there because we all agreed to eat there...
As my dreams progresses, it becomes much stranger because at first I was with my barkada then suddenly I was dining with my crush during my last year of high school at the same restaurant. I was shocked to see my crush there and didn't anymore tried to look for my barkada for I have the hunch the they were the ones who set it up. So we dined and chatted all the way. I was surprised that how open are we for each other: telling jokes and stories and not minding what was going on outside. After eating, we went downstairs of the restaurant while holding each other's hands.. I went with her to a place where she bought something and then suddenly... POOF!! I woke up again! And I suddenly realized that if I didn't stand up that time, I will surely be late for work! Damn! How I wish that I didn't have work that day.. =(
There were also instances during my dream that I suddenly woke up but because I'm still sleepy and would like to continue my dream, I tried to sleep again and to my luck, my dream continued everytime.
While eating breakfast, I can't help myself from smiling because of what I dreamt about. It's been a long since I had a dream again and dreamt a good one also.. Now I am wondering what this dream mean or represent...?
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