Almost Fed Up...

I’m getting fed up with what is happening to me right now. It’s just a Monday morning but I’m very much already irritated. I just had a great time with my barkada last weekend in Tagaytay but just a day after, just this morning; I’m very much irritated already. Who will not be irritated when all you ever hear from my aunt’s maid is something like if I could give some money because my aunt’s ran out of funds to initially pay for our food expenses?! To think that just last Friday, I just gave my aunt 500 bucks as a payment for our food expense for the last few days which was amounting to around 300 bucks only. Then when I got home last Sunday from my out-of-town trip, I learned from my brother that the remaining 200 bucks was all used up to pay for the rice. Then this morning, my aunt’s already ran out of funds to initially pay for the food?! And I asked the maid if she need the money right now, and of course she said “Yes”. What do they think of me?! A person who has a lot of money or a bank which they could always get money?! Do they really think that I’m earning that much for them to rely on me?! To think that for the past week, all we got for lunch and dinner was all vegetables! I’m not really the “ma-reklamo” type but I’m nearing the end of my patience. That’s the reason why I usually don’t want to stay at my aunt’s house but I’ve got no choice, our house still isn’t near complete yet. As on now, I’m nearly considering of moving out, it’s just that, who will now then support my two brothers? How I wish I got another house far away where I could stay there all by myself.

I’m really pissed-off with my present situation right now. It seems like that I’m the one who is already supporting for our food expense for us. I don’t often see my father now, which he says that he is staying in our new constructed house to see to it that none of our things will be lost. And I feel that my aunt’s already getting used to ask money from me because my father doesn’t anymore give money to her. I’ve got a hunch as to why my father seems to rely on me financially right now. I think it is because his cousin is always asking me if I had an additional four thousand bucks with where I am working now because I’m a Chinese and my father is always with his cousin. Duh?! My father would be really stupid if he ever listened and believed in him.

What pissed me more is that fact that it is just Monday and I’m already irritated! Hay.. It’s a good thing that I’ve got this blog right now. Thanks to my officemate. I could now somehow channel some, if not all, of my anger here… It’s not that I don’t have friends which I could talk to… It’s just that most of them are quite busy nowadays with their own lives… Hay.. How I wish that all of these would end…