Hate Week!!

I really hate this week! So far, all this week have given me is mainly all problems: from the house and on the way to work. The only good thing is that work-wise I don't have that much of a problem. May just the thing that I seem to always have a headache. Don't know if this is because of lack of sleep but for the past few days, I've been sleeping a bit earlier than usual. My hunch is that it is probably because of improper posture while sleeping or maybe because of I usually wake up in the middle of the night. Last night, we were at SM and I bought some Salonpas. Well, hopefully my headache would now stop because it is very uncomfortable to think and work.

Hay.. For two (2) days, I'm very late for work. Monday was the worst for I was able to report to work at around 8:22 already. I was suppose to ride LRT going here to work but six (6) trains passsed by but still I wasn't able to get a ride. I spent around 140 bucks for I just ride a cab all the way to the office. And then today, I was late again! Around four (4) trains passed by again.. I was able to report at around 8:11! Hopefully this two incident will not much have effect on my probationary period. To think that it is already my last month of probationary and only then did I experience being late by this much. I'm (well, both one of my officemate and me is) thinking that maybe it is because of the extended work hours of LRT that may be the reason for their degraded service. To think that it normally now takes around 4-5 trains northbound before there will be one (1) train going southbound. And when the train reaches the third (3rd) station, it is already full of people. I don't know why it seems that they try to fill up the train in the first and second station. The people on the third and fourth stations seems to have a hard time to get a ride because normally the skip train starts on the fifth (5th) station.. Hay..

Money seems to be my biggest problem right now. It seems like that my dad is starting to be dependent on me regarding financial matters. I don't anymore seem to save for myself. This is the first time that my ATM account is almost empty since I started working here. This is the thing that I fear most when I start working. Since I started working, I'm already the one paying for our food (lunch and dinner) and he expects me to be the one to still pay for the half of the telephone bill and for some of the breakfast and household items. Well, today since we are leaving in our aunt's house, I'm still the one paying for our food expense. But because of the recent high prices of commodities, I now give 20% more than my usual contribution. Good thing that I don't anymore pay for the telephone bills. But I hope that I won't be the one that will give allowance to my brothers anymore because I can't already afford it. My dad told me the other day that if I could first give my brother money for transportation and he will just then pay me back. Well, actually I know that he will never pay me back but I just hope that this will not happen again because I know my dad is that type of person who once he got to used to that situation of me being able to give allowance to my brothers and he will not anymore give money to them. I feel that this maybe the influence of his cousin that says that normally Chinese people who works for our company have some additional 4,000 bucks in salary. Hay.. My dad is really stupid and foolish enough if he really believe in that.

I'm pissed off to our manager for our alumni team. Just this Monday, he called me up and the first thing that he asked me is if we could still get to the championship. Well, I said that championship looks very dim because of lack of manpower and then he told me that he is getting irritated for the fact that he is not getting not enough playing time. How could he expect to have that much playing time when in fact that he doesn't come to the game that often and he still doesn't know much of our playing style?! And when he comes to the game, he is usually a quarter or two late. I can't seem to remember him coming to the game in time. I know he is our manager but he should still know that if he expects to play, he should somehow come on time. Just like what had happened last Sunday when we had a game and lost by just 4pts to the defending champion team. If I remember it right, he came at around almost half-time or third (3rd) quarter already. How could he expect for I to let him play?! Probably if he already played a game somewhere, maybe I could still use him efficiently but when I saw him last Sunday, it seems like he had just came from his house. Well, he finally said that when he is not there, I could do what I want but whenever he is there, he should have a lot quality time; actually not just him but all the players that I don't give a lot of playing minutes. If we ever could sweep our last two games which I think is really possible, our next game will be in the quarter finals and that will be the game in which our manager is here and available to play. Well, actually I'm planning not to anymore attend that game anymore because I will be just be irritated. But some of my friends say that I still should attend that game if ever to avoid controversies. Another thing that pissed me off more is that I feel that our team, well actually the 7-9 players that I usually use, are starting to jell in time for the quarterfinals if ever but I didn't tell that to our manager. Another thing that our manager told me is that he doesn't care if we win or lose, he just want all the players to have fun. Well, if he could have told me that earlier, I could have not been thinking and thinking on what to do during the game and also not to anymore somehow prepare for the game and just let the players play... Ggrr....

I think that my problems starting to creep up on me because I sometimes easily feel irritated here in the office right now. I'm not being a "plastic" type of person but as much as possible I don't want to bring my "irritated" stage from my house here in the office. But there are already times that I'm starting to show signs that I am getting angry or irritated. Maybe I'm just stressed up.. Maybe I need a weekend to unwind and probably have a massage.. But the thing is, I don't have enough money. One of my officemates told me that there is a cheap massage parlor near the office at the rate of around 200 bucks. Hopefully their service is good. Still need to get some assurance regarding their place and type of service. Well, hopefully, I could still control my emotions and reactions here at work because I don't want to have any problems here in the office because I won't have anymore place to run and to hide....